MKE: Weeks 5 & 6!

Honestly, I am doing the best that I can, I am not doing ‘My Best’. I have failed many days to stay committed to the process, my reads and my sits. I missed watching part of the webinar on Sunday and am just now finishing it up. I missed my blog post last week (hence the combination). And now I am struggling horrible with my Press Release. I have let the daily crazy take up both my energy and attention far too much.Heavy sigh……

There you have it.

A few days ago, I decided to listen to the MKS audios while I am on my walks. I am completely amazed at how often my mind is constantly wondering off and not staying focused on really anything. This constant wandering and lack of focus is creating my current reality I feel out of control, unaccomplished, unorganized and unhappy. Don’t get me wrong – I don’t feel this way all of the time, but enough. I am fighting old behaviors that actually crave this state I absolutely want to change.

So….now I am seeing it, recognizing it and observing it. This is PROGRESS for me. Just a bit of MKE and I SEE. Think of the possibilities if I fully commit to this process!

So, like Mark said…..time to do ‘My Best’!

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MKE: Week 4

I can be what I will to be….

My entire life I have been an animal lover. Without a doubt, 100% …animal lover. With unwavering faith, I have always known that. So, with that, all my thoughts and actions have always supported that. Slamming on breaks to miss a squirrel. Stopping to help find a wandering dogs home. Donating to the humane society. Leaving out food for stray cat who looks scared and helpless. Rescuing other animals and making them part of our family. Etc.….

So, in thinking about ‘I can be what I will to be’ it occurred to me that this is the perfect example for me to begin to understand the power of thought process, with something I have already willed to be. I have wiled to be an animal lover, my entire life. So much so, that it is very hard for me to understand or comprehend someone who isn’t. The thought of not being and animal lover has never entered my reality. HOW CAN YOU NOT BE AN ANIMAL LOVER!!

So maybe this isn’t the best example or thought process for our lesson this week, but it was the one that occurred to me when my world was rocked this Thursday morning. Yet again, my family had lost another member. Max was one of the most handsome dogs I have ever seen. And his love and loyalty to our family for 14 years, still seemed too short. We adopted Max when he was about two. And we got him from someone who was not an animal lover, to say the least. Even though he had a rough start, he quickly found his place within our family, and there he was, every day for 14 years. I know, they say 16 years is a great run for a dog…but no matter how short or long, it’s never easy to lose one of your family members. He will be greatly missed, just like all the others our family has lost.

And now, for the first time in 19 years, our home has no animals in it, and my heart is broken, yet again.

RIP Max….Max

MKE: Week 3

As you can see, there is not an exclamation point after 3. This week has been challenging. Not because of the process, but learning how to push out the ‘old stuff’ that keeps distracting me. Since I have started with the MKE I feel like it has kicked a domino, that should have been kicked long ago, and now more than ever, I am being challenged. And that challenge is coming directly from me.

After the webinar on Sunday, the fabulous Davene made a comment that stuck with me. She said “We’re working it out. It doesn’t have to be perfect today…” I wrote that down and honestly have read it each day. I’m trying to work a lot out. So, I need to stay the course, increase my enthusiasm (I am really starting to see how this part is so important) and redirect my efforts to this process.

Deep breath…

MKE: Week 2!

Disclaimer; if you are reading my blog….welcome! If you are not currently or have not previously participated in the MKE, you will probably wonder what the hell I am talking about or referring to in parts of my entries. No worries, for more information on the MKE click here masterkeyexperience.com and again, thanks for stopping by!

Here we are, week 2 and honestly still feeling slightly overwhelmed but majorly disorganized. The MKE app on my phone is a very helpful reminder of the daily requirements. So thank you to the person who created that!

Now, speaking of the daily requirements, can we talk about this SIT thing real quick? I am no stranger to meditation. In fact it has been a life saver to me in regards to managing my anxiety. BUT….. I am used to guided meditations, that last between 5 – 8 minutes. To me, it is the hardest thing in the world to sit for 15 minutes, in silence, and clear your mind. I know that my husband will laugh at this statement as he knows silence is something that almost never accompanies me. We did a SIT together the other night and I swear he could feel me crawling out of my skin. I seriously have flashbacks of being younger at my friends house for dinner. They would say a prayer before anyone could dish up – obviously something my family and I did not do. Generally these prayers were started by her father and wrapped up by her grandmother (at least 5 minutes which is like a lifetime for a teenager!). Everyone would sit silently with eyes closed and heads facing our laps. I would carefully open one eye and look around, wondering what exactly everyone else was thinking. How could they all be so still? Why is this taking so long? I think the dog wants outside. Omg, Gabby’s brother just picked his nose! What is in that bowl? Did she make those amazing corn tortillas again? Did I remember to tell my mom I wasn’t going to be home for dinner tonight? Oh look….yum, I love those tamales…..’AMEN!’ Phew! Let’s eat….

SERIOUSLY…… the SIT has been challenging. And to be honest, at times, I try to ignore that it is a requirement. But, I understand the importance of it, so yet again, challenge accepted.

Oh….and I quit my job this week.

Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now. Do it now.

 

MKE: Week 1!

Ok….full disclosure, I am behind and did not get my scholarship accepted until this week, thus I missed the first live webinar. But…. still being excited, I have moved forward and have tried my best to dot all of my i’s and cross my t’s to get organized moving forward.

I have never blogged before…..ever. Although I would like to think all of the journals I once kept religiously when I was younger, was somewhat of the same thing. (minus the public part of course! I don’t think my teenage/young adult self could have survived those books getting out to anyone!) Regardless…. here I am…. here we are…. enjoy my words and if you have any feedback, know that I LOVE it!

Now, the subject at hand…..week 1. Getting my DMP put together is most definitely still in progress. In fact, most of this blog is actually on a note pad that I will transfer in a few days, as I do not want to lose my thoughts. The hardest part for me with the DMP is that over the past few years, I feel like I have lost myself. What do I want? What are my goals? My dreams? My purpose? So I guess for now, my first few versions might sound a bit generic or even shallow. But, what my husband says (this is MKE round 3 for him, go babe!) is that this is a process. Don’t limit or judge yourself and keep your mind open. A nice piece of advice that actually helped me wrap up the first draft of my DMP.

Now in regards to the Master Key part one I have already encountered a huge challenge. Part one #3 & #4. Basically, we are what we think. Our attitude depends on what we think. And really!?, the secret of all power depends on our method of thinking???? Well SHIT!! Beating myself up is something I have actually mastered. I know, it’s stupid. And trust me, I tell people all the time “do not beat yourself up!”. But being a woman, wife and a mother I have gotten into a horrible habit of pointing out to myself everything that I think I am doing wrong, have done wrong or might do wrong. And I know if you are a mother and you are reading this, you know the crap that runs through our heads sometimes is literally INSANE.

Enter Og Mandino and scroll number 1! Creating new habits to replace the old ones that do not service you or your DMP.

OK MKE……..challenge accepted. See you next week!