So, I am still trying to decide if this program is really for me. But worry not, that decision will come at the completion of this course. As for now, I am taking from it the things that work for me and doing my best. I understand the reasoning behind all the exercises, I get the need to connect, that results in repetition and consistency are always sure and I support the proof that there is in participation.
Don’t’ get me wrong, this course has been a great reminder of those things I have learned once before, yet forgotten in the heat of survival mode. And for that I am grateful. I can say though, that if I only take away from this the relationships that I formed here, right in lil’ Vancouver, WA., because of this program, it is a complete success. And I would (and more than likely) will do it all again.
Calling out my peeps who are amazing and kind to me no matter where my struggles are with this:
If I could have you all bottle a part of your amazingness, I would chug it in an instant! (and possibly sell it on the black market!!)
So many times, I have read discipline leads to consistency and that consistency will naturally come out of discipline and continue to be fostered by discipline. I will admit, I am consistently inconsistent. So….my relationship with discipline is somewhat, I guess inconsistent. I love the saying above. I get so caught up in the hamster wheel and plain survival of the day, that my decisions are 8 times out of 10 what I want now and not those things that I truly want more.
Self-respect will lead to self-discipline…. huh…really! No wonder I struggle with this one, I still have that very strong cement of beating myself up. Sometimes I think it’s easier for me to keep myself down instead of succeeding. Scary….
This one will take some time.
Behind on my blogs….yes.
Missings sits and reads….yes.
Beating myself up….no.
Hanging on and hanging out.
Am I 100%, no. I am taking what I need (right now) from all of this and still seeing the benifits. Maybe not good enough for some, but hey….. it’s my journey.
“In creating a Mental Image or an Ideal, we are projecting a thought into the Universal Substance from which all things are created. This Universal Substance is Omnipresent, Omnipotent and Omniscient. Are we to inform the Omniscient as to the proper channel to be used to materialize our demand? Can the finite advise the Infinite? This is the cause of failure; of every failure. We recognize the Omnipresence of the Universal Substance, but we fail to appreciate the fact that this substance is not only Omnipresent, but is
Omnipotent and Omniscient, and consequently will set causes in motion concerning which we may be entirely ignorant.”
knowing everything.“the story is told by an omniscient narrator”
synonyms: all-knowing, all-wise, all-seeing“he thought I was some kind of omniscient guru”
(of a deity) having unlimited power; able to do anything.
synonyms: all-powerful, almighty, supreme, preeminent, most high; More
having ultimate power and influence.“an omnipotent sovereign”
widely or constantly encountered; common or widespread.“the omnipresent threat of natural disasters”
synonyms: ubiquitous, all-pervasive, everywhere; More
(of God) present everywhere at the same time.adjective: omnipresent
Thank you Google…..much needed at times!!
So I spoke to a fellow MKE’r last night and mentioned that I was struggling with a handful of parts in this program, blogging being one of them. She simply said, “you know, even if its only a couple of sentences, your still blogging”. Then I thought to myself, wow…….! I really think that I have been over complicating and over thinking these parts that I am struggling with, then I turn around and beat myself up about it. Old cement…. so thick.
Thank you Lisa, I have fresh perspective on some things now!