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Here we are, week 2 and honestly still feeling slightly overwhelmed but majorly disorganized. The MKE app on my phone is a very helpful reminder of the daily requirements. So thank you to the person who created that!
Now, speaking of the daily requirements, can we talk about this SIT thing real quick? I am no stranger to meditation. In fact it has been a life saver to me in regards to managing my anxiety. BUT….. I am used to guided meditations, that last between 5 – 8 minutes. To me, it is the hardest thing in the world to sit for 15 minutes, in silence, and clear your mind. I know that my husband will laugh at this statement as he knows silence is something that almost never accompanies me. We did a SIT together the other night and I swear he could feel me crawling out of my skin. I seriously have flashbacks of being younger at my friends house for dinner. They would say a prayer before anyone could dish up – obviously something my family and I did not do. Generally these prayers were started by her father and wrapped up by her grandmother (at least 5 minutes which is like a lifetime for a teenager!). Everyone would sit silently with eyes closed and heads facing our laps. I would carefully open one eye and look around, wondering what exactly everyone else was thinking. How could they all be so still? Why is this taking so long? I think the dog wants outside. Omg, Gabby’s brother just picked his nose! What is in that bowl? Did she make those amazing corn tortillas again? Did I remember to tell my mom I wasn’t going to be home for dinner tonight? Oh look….yum, I love those tamales…..’AMEN!’ Phew! Let’s eat….
SERIOUSLY…… the SIT has been challenging. And to be honest, at times, I try to ignore that it is a requirement. But, I understand the importance of it, so yet again, challenge accepted.
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