So, I am still trying to decide if this program is really for me. But worry not, that decision will come at the completion of this course. As for now, I am taking from it the things that work for me and doing my best. I understand the reasoning behind all the exercises, I get the need to connect, that results in repetition and consistency are always sure and I support the proof that there is in participation.
Don’t’ get me wrong, this course has been a great reminder of those things I have learned once before, yet forgotten in the heat of survival mode. And for that I am grateful. I can say though, that if I only take away from this the relationships that I formed here, right in lil’ Vancouver, WA., because of this program, it is a complete success. And I would (and more than likely) will do it all again.
Calling out my peeps who are amazing and kind to me no matter where my struggles are with this:
If I could have you all bottle a part of your amazingness, I would chug it in an instant! (and possibly sell it on the black market!!)
So many times, I have read discipline leads to consistency and that consistency will naturally come out of discipline and continue to be fostered by discipline. I will admit, I am consistently inconsistent. So….my relationship with discipline is somewhat, I guess inconsistent. I love the saying above. I get so caught up in the hamster wheel and plain survival of the day, that my decisions are 8 times out of 10 what I want now and not those things that I truly want more.
Self-respect will lead to self-discipline…. huh…really! No wonder I struggle with this one, I still have that very strong cement of beating myself up. Sometimes I think it’s easier for me to keep myself down instead of succeeding. Scary….
This one will take some time.
Behind on my blogs….yes.
Missings sits and reads….yes.
Beating myself up….no.
Hanging on and hanging out.
Am I 100%, no. I am taking what I need (right now) from all of this and still seeing the benifits. Maybe not good enough for some, but hey….. it’s my journey.
“In creating a Mental Image or an Ideal, we are projecting a thought into the Universal Substance from which all things are created. This Universal Substance is Omnipresent, Omnipotent and Omniscient. Are we to inform the Omniscient as to the proper channel to be used to materialize our demand? Can the finite advise the Infinite? This is the cause of failure; of every failure. We recognize the Omnipresence of the Universal Substance, but we fail to appreciate the fact that this substance is not only Omnipresent, but is
Omnipotent and Omniscient, and consequently will set causes in motion concerning which we may be entirely ignorant.”
knowing everything.“the story is told by an omniscient narrator”
synonyms: all-knowing, all-wise, all-seeing“he thought I was some kind of omniscient guru”
(of a deity) having unlimited power; able to do anything.
synonyms: all-powerful, almighty, supreme, preeminent, most high; More
having ultimate power and influence.“an omnipotent sovereign”
widely or constantly encountered; common or widespread.“the omnipresent threat of natural disasters”
synonyms: ubiquitous, all-pervasive, everywhere; More
(of God) present everywhere at the same time.adjective: omnipresent
Thank you Google…..much needed at times!!
So I spoke to a fellow MKE’r last night and mentioned that I was struggling with a handful of parts in this program, blogging being one of them. She simply said, “you know, even if its only a couple of sentences, your still blogging”. Then I thought to myself, wow…….! I really think that I have been over complicating and over thinking these parts that I am struggling with, then I turn around and beat myself up about it. Old cement…. so thick.
Thank you Lisa, I have fresh perspective on some things now!
And yes, for the record, the week off was nice but I got more off track than I already was….Oy vey!!
Thank you to my friend, Zach,……using your questions to generate this blog! Visit Zach’s amazing blog here! https://mkmmawordblog.wordpress.com
1.) What am I good at? I am good at a lot of things; however, I am not great at really any, but I am a good mom, wife, friend and business owner.
2.) What am I so-so at? Health and wellness commitments
3.) What am I bad at? Keeping my mouth shut
4.) What makes me tired? Running….. and people who ‘know it all’.
5.) What is the most important thing in my life? love
6.) Who are the most important people in my life? My husband and my daughter
7.) How much sleep do I need? 7 hours
8.) What stresses me out? Being a good mom, a good wife, a good friend and a good business owner. Oh, and a messy house.
9.) What relaxes me? Unfortunately, wine and reality tv.
10.) What is my definition of success? Being financially secure, having a healthy family and being physically and mentally fit.
11.) What type of worker am I? Very efficient and organized. A very good manager.
12.) How do I want others to see me? Kind, helpful, funny
13.) What makes me sad? Anything that has to do with child/animal abuse and/or neglect.
14.) What makes me happy? Helping others and making people laugh
15.) What makes me angry? Same as #13, also the fact that common sense is not so common anymore.
16.) What type of person do I want to be? Great and graceful, one that I love.
17.) What type of friend do I want to be? A great one
18.) What do I think about myself? I will take a pass on this one for now. Let’s just say I have room for improvements.
19.) What things do I value in life? My family, my comforts, my opportunities.
20.) What makes me afraid? Losing everything
Ok…no joke, the last 5 days I have gotten into my car, and at some point the song ’You get what you give’ has been on in some facet or another. Whether just starting, just ending, or mid-way when I switch stations. You know the song, or maybe you don’t. Released by the New Radicals in 1998. For the first month that I heard this song, I thought it was U2 (luv me some U2!). Any who, it was odd to me how much I kept noticing this song, weird. Maybe…but maybe not. I have been doing a lot of thinking on thinking…. Ok, you know what I mean (especially if you are an MKE’er). But more specifically, I have been very observant of my actions lately. Yes, I have also been observing my words, but unfortunately, usually as an afterthought. Please keep in mind this is one thing I REALLY need work on. I mean seriously…..open mouth…insert foot. Or more often than not, just defensive humor – now…. that is my strong suit! Good thing I am somewhat funny. Hmmmmm….or is that a bad thing?
Back to 1998. I had just started a new job with Kinko’s that I loved. My roommate at the time got me the interview, but hello – who wouldn’t want to hire me. So, there it started. A time in my life where I started to learn a ton (no joke A TON) from an amazing company and great co-workers. Additionally, it just so happened that was the year I fell in love for the first time in my life. The man I feel in love with was my close friend and roommate. The one who ‘got’ me the job. The story of us is of course so much bigger than this paragraph. So more on that later.
Seriously, do you remember the first time you fell in love? I can remember slices, chunks or even waves. That overwhelmong feeling in your heart and your body, being consumed so much so that you could barely focus on anything else for more than just a few minutes. Everything in your life was entangled by that force of love. It was, to me at least, somewhat of an amazing of suffication. I had never felt anything like it before.
Anyways, not quite sure if the ‘you get what you give’ is directly connected to this week but it cleary is for me, it seems that I have been connecting subconsciously to random things that have been part of all these reads and lessons.
Cool…..slowly learning, retraining and OBSERVING…..I’ll take this as progress and skip the usual beating I give myself in the back alley.
I will greet this day with love in my heart….and the first person I am finally giving that to is myself.
(RIP KINKOS, a truely amazing company before the buyout)
Ok…so still running a little behind. BUT still here.
“This then is the real key to life: if you change your mind your conditions must change too. Your body must change, your daily work or other activities must change; your home must change; the color-tone of your whole life must change, for whether you be habitually happy and cheerful, or low-spirited and fearful, depends entirely on the quality of the mental food upon which you diet yourself. Please be very clear about this. If you change your mind your conditions must change too. We are transformed by the renewing of our minds. So now you will see that your mental diet is really the most important thing in your whole life.”
The Seven Day Mental Diet. Wow. It is absolutely amazing how much I beat myself up! Holy cow!
Restart….restart….restart…..I honestly don’t think I even made it 7hours!
Mental discipline, mental exercise. This is all still a very new and challenging to me. And as my husband has said, and continues to say, this is why the SIT is so important.
One more thought, too bad they don’t teach things like The Seven Day Mental Diet to us as children or young adults in school. Imagine what that could do.